SWOLLEN UP BODY PARTS AND SLEEPLESS NIGHTS

 Hi Pet Lovers, 

When you're on the roller coaster ride of  chemotherapy; you'll have to take steroids. You won't look like a body builder or anything. You're feet will get swollen like a pregnant person. They make you lose all your sleep. You'll do all-nighters for a long time. Not going to sleep for 8 hours straight takes a toll on your health. I used to not sleep the whole night. I used to wake up at 6AM. Most of the time I'd be eating tip-tops. Mr. Freeze got me through some tough times. Drawing got me through the nights when heartburn kicked in. I could relate to a pregnant person. I'd wish my cramps, heartburn, and swollen feet on a sibling who was bringing new life into the world when I was having my butt kicked by chemo. 

Most of the time I'd go to the loo. Every five seconds I'd press the buzzer to call someone. Being at home in my own bed was okay. I would just need someone to be near me. I'd go downstairs super early, which wasn't ideal for the rest of the house who were sleeping soundly. I'd put tome praying on the T.V. It helps to have Quran on in the background while resting. It's a healing process for the mind, body, and soul. 

Hot packs got me through the night. Insomnia was my new best friend. I'd lie awake thinking about things. Overthinking isn't something you should be doing. You gotta be zen.  In the words of Hazel Grace Lancaster: 

'Okay?'

The drop dead, good looking, intelligent male character Augustus Waters flirts back:

'Okay?' 

It's a verbal I love you. It works when you're in pain, to hear the comforting words of someone who's next to you. Cry as much as you want in private. 

I'll leave you to read in peace. 

Enjoy.

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